Hi there!

It's almost 4 in the morning and I'm still not sleeping. This unhealthy lifestyle has been going on for a while and I really need to stop b4 I go aussie or else I would be sleeping at wht, 6am over there?

Speaking of Aussie, I really got to stop being such a sloth and march (or bus hehe so lame) down to smu tmrw and withdraw if not sister and mother would gang up on me again ( kidding I know u guys love meeeeeeeee ). PLEASE GERMAINE, DO NOT CHICKEN OUT AGAIN AND STOP LIVING IN DENIAL K. IM SUCHA PUSSY

Ok now I forgot what was the purpose of me lj-ing hmmmmm. My memory sucks and I don't rmb but I got other things to say I guess.

I'm happy w my life these days, or actually for quite some time since last year. Maybe happy isn't the right word, perhaps contented? I have come to terms that life isn't perfect and there are always gonna be days/weeks/months/yrs(hopefully not) that suck, but there's no use feeling sorry for yourself bout it, and no one can pick u back up but urself. I won't say I'm happy, nor am I suddenly full of sunshine and rainbows, but I'm determined to make the most of what I have, even if it's not much. Cos there are no room for regrets and no time for tears, I gotta just suck it up, cos no one else is gonna do that for me. And to be honest, neither do I think anyone is able to do that for me. What can I say, Im an independent girl:)

This is my first post of 2012, and it's alrd the 17th day into the new year. Time's flying and I feel so old! I feel like I've grown over the years, maybe not enough yet still, but I hope I'll continue to do so in the coming new year. Grow not meaning that I've learned the cliche of guarding my heart and etc (I'm don't wish to shut the lovely ppl in my life out it) but more like learning to let go and take things easy. Sometimes, we should cut ourselves, as well as the people around us, some slack cos no one is having an easy time. Oh mian, ok maybe I sound a little too chirppy and optimistic and sunshine and rainbow, but the meaning's there.

In 2012, I wanna continue being happy or contended whatever this is called. Also, I wanna stop being sucha fake at times, I wanna be happy for my friends even when it's to my own disadvantage (haha noone ever understands this point even aft explanation but this is just a note to myself) and finally I really wish I can be a better person, daughter, sister, granddaughter, friend, best friend and hopefully in the near future girlfriend too LOL.

Lastly, happy new year folks!:)

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